woohoo, i love friday!!! time to slack...

Gratitude

Since young, i know that my family is not very well to do, we lived in a 3 room flat since i was born. However, the whole family always save the best for me, cos i am the smallest in the family.

My dad is a very simple person who does not talk a lot, except when he is drunk, haha... He scrimped and saved a lot to bring us up, he used to be a lorry driver, he had a constant pain in his knees up till now becos he never really rested his legs even thou his knees hurt in the past. Nowadays when i see him walking up the stairs, my heart hurts a bit cos i saw that he has hunched and it hurts for him to do that...

My mum used to be a seamstress who will work at home sewing the school uniforms with the machine, she will do that besides doing all the household chores.. Nowadays, she will try to talk to me everyday before she sleeps, but i will always be busy msning or doing some other stuff instead of engaging in a conversation with her.

My sis have the opportunity of going to junior college after secondary school but she opt to go to poly cos she knows that i will make it to uni and she is leaving my dad's cpf for me so that it will be easier for me... even thou she never told me that b4 but i know that is part of her intention y she wanna go to a poly..

Now all of them are all not at home, i am home alone, my parents went to china to travel, they love going there. while my sis is staying over at her bf's house. My mum has been learning english nowadays, making vast improvement, i am proud of her. while my sis took a part time degree at SIM and grad with a second upper, she became my role model to study hard, haha even thou i was still very slack. While my dad is now working for my uncle as a storekeeper managing all the inventories.

They are now my motivation to work hard, cos i wanna repay my tuition fee loan so that they can go for their yearly holidays and also want to add a car in the family. i am really really grateful, cos i am who i am today becos of them. i shld treat them better during this dec holiday season...

Me

Just now i have been thinking quite a bit when i was bathing, think that i have changed quite a bit somehow... in terms of everything, be it good or bad... but basically i am still who i am.

I just want pple to grow old with me, i do not need a lot of friends around me, just need pals who can be with me when i am down and out.. i must really learn to appreciate my parents whom i have been neglecting all these while, starting to feel bad...

I hate to compete in everything, i just like to slack and relac.. in a race i will rather enjoy the scenery around me rather than run all the way till the ending point. cos i know that the ending will still be the same place but the process for everyone will be different...

I still cannot kick the habit of being late, still too used of taking my own sweet time, i think most likely or not i will be late by fifteen mins every time i go out..

I love pple who are frank and sincere.. cos i believe in everything others told me, i will not doubt pple's words.. maybe i am gullible, but i think this is the basic trust that i must have for everyone around me..

I am a risk taker, love to do the most exciting thing.. life sux w/o excitement, wanna take some time off in the future like at least half a yr to stay put in another country.. experiencing the life there.. dun wanna work overseas but really immersing in their culture...

Forgot a lot of things that had been running thru my head, but i still love life as it is.. thats me...